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kingfox
kingfox
I quit
As you might have read, I've made a decision. You know what, I quit. I quit LJ. Maybe more of my online lifestyle. It causes drama, confusion, miscommunication, and problems.

graye announcing his quitting of CS for good got me thinking. I've learned a lot from my over ten years as a netizen. I've learned how to get information out of people like that maggot Asclepius. I've learned about the world and it's people better than a class ever could teach me. I've learned from neenerface to try to be happy, xiolette had taught me what makes me happy, graye has taught me not to be a lazy_savant, I've learned how to get people to agree with me or disagree with me. I've learned how others think, the nuts and bolts of my fellow talking hairless monkeys on this cold rock. I've laughed, I've loved, I've cried, and I've felt pain. Friends of mine have met their wives online, and friends of mine have been betrayed online. It's been a source of many things for me. But I'm done. Lately it seems to be nothing but a source of drama and misunderstanding. Oh no, this person said this, maybe they mean this? Maybe they're talking about me, maybe they're being mean to me. I've known people primarily online who have had kids or died, the circle of online life is complete.

No one clicks on my links. No one comments on what I have to say. People like neenerface, track44, and jennytenny have unfriended me for petty reasons. I haven't had time for cybersphere, and thedenbbs seems to be running just fine. I can just maintain that. I won't turn it off just because of this decision. I'll still use the internet for work, I'll still read my email, I'll still use Jabber. But no more AIM or ICQ. No more Friendster or Orkut. No more of the petty little middle school bullshit. Who cares which Wu member you are? You know what, I'm Sam fucking Malone and Tony fucking Soprano. Quizilla says so, so suck it. I've had enough of the pointless quizzes, people posting a link I made months ago and getting a dozen comments on it, reading about the minute details of the furry lifestyle, reading about people putting up with miserable fucking situations that dozens of people comment day after day that they should get out of, and people never fucking learning. Wake up, people. This is not life. I thought that once. Yeah yeah, I shine through the LJ medium, I'm a node on the net, I am Prospero.

I've neglected the meat and embraced the digital medium. I had a problem with this until I read McKenna and his thoughts on technology being an extension of nature. I thought everything was cool, but I was wrong. I didn't realize this until I lived with petemagyar for a while. Like the geeks in Microserfs not in Silicon Valley, I had ignored my flesh and neglected my pasty shell. No more. I live life now, instead of journaling a lack of a life and ``living'' on the net.

I'll keep my BBS up. I'll still use the internet for work and informational purposes. I'll take this journal down later today.

Thank you for sharing your lives with me. I just can't take the drama and bullshit aspects of it any more, and ignore my real life any longer. Goodbye.

Feeling: distressed distressed
Listening to: Iron Maiden, A Real Live One

Chorus of 35 demons || Preach it
Comments
angryjonny From: angryjonny Date: April 1st, 2004 11:43 am (UTC) (Hard link)
Hrm. This seems too detailed to be an April Fool's prank. . . but I remain skeptical.

If it's not, well, I'll miss ya Mr. Permanent Account
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 12:42 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
I'll miss you too, but I'm sure I'll see you.

I mean, really, almost everyone I talk to online or on LJ knows my number. They've been capable all this time of picking up the phone and giving me a call. I'll send out an email for sushi some time, and you'll barely notice missing the pointless drivel of my daily life.

Instead we'll sit at a table, and you'll hear what you want to hear in person. The old-fashioned proper way.
runstaverun From: runstaverun Date: April 1st, 2004 11:49 am (UTC) (Hard link)
wow, you seemed happy about a decision this morning. must be liberating. I'd welcome you to the real world, but I'm too busy replying to your post to walk across the hall and talk to you in person. maybe you've got a point there.
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 12:43 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
aaronkliger was right. It's a dependency, and I've already got caffeine and video games. I don't need any more dependencies in my life.
graye From: graye Date: April 1st, 2004 11:57 am (UTC) (Hard link)
Goddamn. Well, if you are quitting, I will miss you. You have been a very cool person, all around, over the years. I'll see you in-BBS, perhaps, and I hope you'll pop up from time to time. If I'm ever in the greater NY area, don't be shocked if I come find you (or make a good go at it). I can lookup Drew, after all.


But I understand and sympathize with your decision to shift focus and build the flesh, and if what it takes to do that is to remove your time here....well, then so be it.

Something I say often is "Balance in all things," and if you feel your life is unbalanced towards the net and online, then you definitely need to quit. There are places, stories and faces you will find out there -- somewhere -- that you'll never find here. And if you need them, go find them.

It's my hope that someday you'll be able to come back, though, and look upon the net and those of us here as a part of your life. Not a large part, or the only part, but a small part -- something you can take pleasure from.

It's annoying that drama tends to happen on here, and it just highlights the need for face-to-face interaction when dealing with things. Likewise, it can be really frustrating when you spend a lot of time, effort and intellectual investment making something that...everybody seems to ignore. I hate it when that happens to me (and it does, sometimes).

But these are small things, and sometimes the recognition doesn't equal the deed. This is simply life.

I don't post much in your journal, but I always read it. I don't click on all the links, but I click on a fair bit of them, and am generally amused or impressed.

But if the net is being a drag, then don't keep dragging it. Let it go, go find what you need to find, and remember us fondly. Fire off an email from time to time, if you can. Most of us are easy to find.

To wit:

Enjoy the sushi in life. Enjoy the sunshine, the trees, the flowers, and the sea. Enjoy the faces on the street, the music in the alleyways, and the heat off the pavement. Enjoy the life out there. That's what it's for.

The internet is nothing more than a small comment on that life out there, an ongoing dialogue. It's not to your taste right now, and so let it go.

It'll be here if you're ever interested in it again.

Walk easy, Russell. I don't expect you to be off the radar for ever, so I'm not saying goodbye for good. But goodbye for now, and I hope you find the good life while you're gone.
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 01:10 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Your speach about not knowing how to paddle a canoe but knowing people better affected me more than you will ever realize. And I mean that seriously.
shmivejournal From: shmivejournal Date: April 1st, 2004 12:12 pm (UTC) (Hard link)

you've never been to a strip club? what are you, some kind of faggot?

...Always knew that moving in with that guy was a bad idea.

Pete has introduced you to the "fabulous" and "sweaty" world of "weight lifting", "thin lizzy", "heavy drinking" and "no longer ignoring the flesh" in your cozy shared "Hoboken" bachelor apartment.

Riiiiight. The boys are back in town INDEED.

I wonder what this all is supposed to mean? Sounds a little, well, I won't say it outright.

Listen, if you come to your senses I know some people you can talk to.

From my point of view, you're crazy. Out of all the people I know you'd be the last person I'd suspect to turn his back on the good old LJ. On the other hand, maybe that's why it makes so much sense. Lately you've been acting weird. SEE-YA.
jenniever From: jenniever Date: April 1st, 2004 12:27 pm (UTC) (Hard link)

Re: you've never been to a strip club? what are you, some kind of faggot?

Don't you mean Hoboken "bachelor" apartment?
andamaroo From: andamaroo Date: April 1st, 2004 12:48 pm (UTC) (Hard link)

THE COG TURNS AND PEOPLE COME AND GO

I for one applaud your ability to complain about the drama of livejournal while quitting it in a spectacularly uber-dramatic way.

You were a worthy adversary of the Robot's imminent advance and you shall be missed;though not by the Robot specifically.
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 01:07 pm (UTC) (Hard link)

Re: THE COG TURNS AND PEOPLE COME AND GO

I always wondered why the Robot believed me an enemy, driving me into babingatron's arms.
cetan From: cetan Date: April 1st, 2004 01:01 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Best of Luck. Thanks for introducing me to Wesley Willis. Here I was living in his home town and I'd never even heard of him.

kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 02:21 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Rock over London, rock on Chicago!
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kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 02:22 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
It truly does. And wastes your time.
metallian From: metallian Date: April 1st, 2004 01:14 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Damn, and here I was thinking that your account of the Iron Maiden shows in the previous post was a thing of beauty. :(

Are you going to make text-dump backups, just so you can keep it all for reference/journal purposes, much as one would maintain a paper journal?
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 1st, 2004 02:22 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Yeah, I've downloaded it all, month by month, and done the LJ backup to PDF thingee. Not quite doing the book thing, though.
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kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 4th, 2004 09:33 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
You're right, in many ways. And yes, you have grown quite a bit.
From: drunkinmunchkin Date: April 1st, 2004 02:23 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
i hate the phone. i have a fear of it. i hope we stay in touch.

last night i had a dream about you and chris. i was in the office w/ you and you let me drive your car which was a truck in disguise as a celica. only that part was a dream in my dream, so i was explaining the dream i was having in my dream. it was strange. you were listening. chris was laughing. then dot woke me up.

i do agree with you. livejournal does cause a lot of drama if it isn't censored. i don't think you're supposed to take livejournal too seriously. you're probably right about joining the real world. i don't think i'll be able to because i love AIM. only because i can't stand the phone. makes me nervous. there's nothing like a conversation in person, over drinks and cigarettes lasting long into the night.

i will miss you, though. i'll see you tommorrow at game night (if it's on).
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 4th, 2004 09:26 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
I love dreams within dreams. They're one of my favorite things.
madolan From: madolan Date: April 2nd, 2004 10:41 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
Sneaky bastard...!

I love you, you magnificent jerk; don't do that again.

*raspberry*

*hug*
kingfox From: kingfox Date: April 4th, 2004 09:32 pm (UTC) (Hard link)
I won't do it again, I couldn't think of a better prank this year.

And thanks. *hug* back atcha.
neenerface From: neenerface Date: April 5th, 2004 06:07 am (UTC) (Hard link)
My reason was not petty, I resent the accusation even if it's only in some silly joke post. We have no interaction anymore. We didn't seem to work out to well as friends when you finally figured out how to be happy. I don't fault you for it but, I felt as if I carried the lion's share of contact etc. Growing apart and not keeping in contact isn't petty Russ, it's just life. If it's something you wanted to change you should have brought it to my attention.
Chorus of 35 demons || Preach it