Took that color test that all them kids been takin' lately.
You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.
Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.
Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!
Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.
You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If it's not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
Last night my sweetie came over, and helped me clean my room all night long. Third time she's done this, the first time it was on her own and the second time she helped me. My room looks like a totally new room. Every time we clean it, it gets cleaner, as things get better organized in the end result. We cleaned until ten thirty at night. It looks wonderful.
She tried waking me up, as I was snoring due to all of the dust in the air. Instead I started arguing with her in my sleep about a time machine, quite angrily. Odd.
We were woken up this morning by my female roomie taking a nasty spill. We put on our clothing so fast, it was like a pair of teenies caught by parents returning from vacation early. We raced to the top of the stairs, but her honey was already downstairs comforting her.
Today was the staff picnic. All of the Drew staff members scattered about the lawn, enjoying a picnic, music, and each other. Was fun as always. Boss's kidlet was in attendance, being cute as even and playing with Rian.
Tonight's Doug's last karaoke. Well, so he says. I'm sure he'll pull a Jim and be back in two weeks. But lots of peeps are showing up tonight, should be fun.